Colour Witch's Coven - The Threshold

I’ve been organising events for as long as I can remember. When I say 46 years, it’s absolutely true. I was Social Secretary and Fundraiser for the local Kidney Patients Association alongside my Mum when I was just 11. (I’ll let you do the maths.)

It’s not new. It’s what I’m good at.

In 2019, I made it my whole business as a freelance event manager, and I’ve designed, developed and managed some incredible events over the years. There’s something really satisfying about seeing people enjoy something you’ve put your heart and soul into. Creating experiences that feel effortless, even when you’ve had a week of no sleep pulling it all together.

So this isn’t a phase. It’s how I’m wired.

But I’m starting to acknowledge a pattern.

I get an idea. Usually more like ten.

I get excited.

I put it out there to see if it’s worth my energy.

People say they want it and they’ll come.

So I organise it. To the nth degree.

Branding, visuals, structure, all of it.

I put out the booking information…

And they disappear.

That bit is starting to wear me down. It’s knocking my confidence and pulling me away from what I should be doing, which is my Colour Witch work, my art, my writing, my colour energy alchemy.

So I’ve been asking myself a much harder question.

Am I using events as a distraction from the work I actually need to be doing?

Is my ADHD brain chasing the dopamine hit of a new idea instead of going a little bit deeper?

Because I realised, I’ve started organising things that aren’t even financially viable, just for that buzz.

And that can’t continue.

The problem is… if I stop organising, where do I showcase what I do?

So I need your help...

How do you know when to follow an idea and when to let it go?

Do you struggle with people saying yes, but not committing?

How do you protect your energy when that happens?

I know I can fill rooms. I’ve done it before. Mostly for clients. My own events seem to be a different beast.

So I’m not saying I’ll stop. I don’t think I can. But I really do need to change how I do it.

I keep coming back to a vision I had during a Reiki session.

I was on a cliffside path, similar to the yellow brick one in Wizard of Oz, but each of the cobbles was a bright iridescent sparkling colour.

In the distance was a white lighthouse, which in my world is calm, home, the place I’m heading for.

Along the route were several other paths branching off, made of soil, gravel or wood shavings. Each time I ventured a little along these paths (I mean, I’m curious, why wouldn’t I go off on a side quest!) I’d get so far and a different being (my spirit guides maybe) would stop me and gently guide me back onto the coloured trail.

I keep going back to this as it’s a very clear message.

That not every path is mine to follow.

So I think that’s where I’m at right now. Learning which paths are actually distractions, even when they look exciting.

But genuinely… how do I stop myself organising stuff?